Friday, July 31, 2015

Rejecting Cornell


Rejecting Cornell
Cornell University
Ithaca, NY
1982

I just completed my first year as a guidance counselor, one year after I finished my Master’s degree from Penn State University.  I was 27.  The year was very successful for me and I was given a leadership position within the first month of this new job.  Now my supervisors were suggesting that I start a doctoral program in educational leadership.  Since both my undergraduate and my graduate degrees were from Penn State, I decided to look at a different university.  I loved Penn State but I thought a new university would push me just a little bit more as I would be out of my comfort zone.

I looked at Cornell University and liked the program so I applied with the hopes of starting as soon as possible.  I completed the application and made the first round of cuts.  I was invited to visit campus and meet with one of the professors.

I took the three-hour trip and roamed campus and town and thought I could really step into this pleasant world.  I met with a professor who immediately became a bit antagonistic about my Penn State background.

“Don’t think you care going to come up here for five summers and whip through these courses and then write some dissertation off site.  We aren’t Penn State.  We are very serious about academics here.  We expect you to do at least a full year residency and we prefer that you do the entire program on a full time basis.  We might let you come up for a summer or two but that’s it.”

He followed his opening statement by putting his sandaled feet up on his desk.  He opened a drawer and pulled out toenail clippers and began to clip away at his toes.  Nail clipping soared though the air.

“We are very academic here”, he reinforced one more time as he strained to cut his last toenail.


The interview didn’t last much longer after that and I left with one thought in mind: I am never coming back here to take classes with this arrogant man.  I went home and filled out my application to Penn State.

Thursday, July 30, 2015

Sexually Abusing His Students


Abusing His Students
Professional Misconduct of a Teacher
1992

When I became an assistant principal of a high school in 1988, I was the first and only female to hold this position in my county.  There weren’t many female administrators at the high school level, around the country, at this point in time. Women weren’t hired because there was a general belief that women couldn’t handle the boys and their language and antics. I didn’t find this to be a challenge.

But my new, mere presence had a dramatic change in behavior of some of the male faculty. As male and female faculty alike reported to me, the number of rumors and complaints about inappropriate male teacher behavior towards female students decreased dramatically after I arrived.  It was as if these few men realized they now might be held accountable for these unprofessional behaviors. The male dominated regime was now over.

Former students who were now my age told me story after story of male teachers who touched them, made sexual advances towards and threatened grade reductions if these female students did not comply.  There were even allegations of students becoming pregnant and having abortions to protect some male teachers.

While people marveled at how quickly some teachers got their act together and put these behaviors behind them, not all of these few teachers stopped.

A girl came into my office shaken and asked if she could close the door.  She was usually outspoken when she met with me.  But today, she was frightened, spooked and she needed my help.  She told me she was working with a teacher.  They were alone in a quiet section of the building.  The teacher leaned over to her and tweeted one of her nipples.  She was stunned.  The teacher laughed and asked, “Did you like that?”  She replied. “No.” He tweeted the other nipple, “Well what about this time?’  She jumped up and ran out of the room and came right to me.

I reported this situation immediately to the principal.  He asked me to remain objective, as this behavior was out of character for this teacher who had 35 years of teaching and wouldn’t possible risk so much for so little.

I sent the girl home for the day and then interviewed the teacher.  By the time I got to him, he was a mess.  “Yes, I did that.  I don’t know what came over me,” he cried. That was his last day with us.  He resigned immediately and the girl and her parents said they didn’t want to pursue the matter any further.

Six months later, a mother storms in to my office after school.  She is livid, belligerent and full of fire.  Anger is oozing out of every pore in her body.

“What the fuck is wrong with your fucking teachers?  Are they all perverts?  Do you harbor perverts around here.  Everyone knows who they are and you’re doing nothing about it.”

I ask her to have a seat and ask if she can tell me her name.

“I’ll tell you who I am.  I am the aunt to the girl who got her tits groped by that old pervert teacher who isn’t here anymore and now my daughter comes home to tell me that another one of your perverts grinded her ass right in front of other students.”

It’s pretty hard to follow up with any comment at this point.  I am speechless. With that, her daughter comes in and sits down.

“Tell me what happened”.

“I was at my locker, right outside Mr. Boyd’s class.  He sees me and winks at me.  I ignored him.  He’s so gross. But then I’m bending over to get a book at the bottom of my locker and he is all the sudden, right behind me.  He put his hands on my hips and he grinds his dick on my ass and whispers, ‘I get so hard when I see you in that tight skirt’.  So I pulled away from him and told him to get off me.”

“Then what happened?” I asked as I took notes.

“He just laughed and made some stupid joke with the guys and went back to his desk. He’s a disgusting pig,” she tells me with so much anger that I just want to go find him and punch him myself.

“What’s wrong with your fucking teachers?  Who do they think they are that they can get away with this behavior?  Why hasn’t that guy been fired years ago?  Everyone knows about him. Why do you let him around girls?  Admit it, you know he sleeps with your students”. This mother is so angry; she stares at me with a glare that is a bit frightening.

I can’t lie. I tell her that I have heard allegations but that I cannot take any disciplinary action without due process.  He is entitled to a hearing by law.  But to date, no one will stand up to him.

“Well, this mother will”, she says, pointing to her chest.  “I will take that son of a bitch to court if I have to.  No one is doing this to my daughter or my niece again or any other girl for that matter.  I want a hearing. He is not getting away with it this time. Fuck him.”

I make arrangements for the preliminary hearing the next day.  It is Friday afternoon.  Everyone has left the building for the weekend.  The principal is conducting the hearing.  The girl and her mother show up and sit on the left side of me.  The teacher arrives, alone, without union representation, and takes a seat to my right.

I lay out the gist of our conversation yesterday.  I ask the mother to confirm my comments and she does.  The student also confirms my comments.  The principal asks the teacher if he would like to make any comments.  This man looks broken and he asks the principal and the mother if he could speak privately with the mother and student, “for just a few moments”.  Both parties agree.  So the principal and I step out of the room.

We wait and wait and wait.  Almost an hour passes and then the door opens up.  The teacher leaves the room.  It is obvious that he had been crying. He quickly walks away from us.  I look to the mother.  She looks away from me.

“What happened?”, I ask.

“It’s over”, she says shamefully.

“What do you mean it s over?” I can’t believe what I am hearing.  I am so disappointed in this woman and she can sense it.

“We’re finished.  We aren’t pursuing this anymore.  We’re done”. Her tone is worn out and tired.

“Why, what?”

“He isn’t going to bother her ever again. That’s all I want”, she tells me.

“But what about yesterday, you said you would stand up to him. You wanted to make sure he didn’t do this to one more girl.” Now, I’m mad.

“I’m not dragging my daughter through this if I don’t have to.  We got his attention. 
We’re done.  The other girls aren’t my problem.  That’s your problem”.  And then the two of them left.

“Well, that was a close one”, my principal blurts out.  “He really dodged that bullet. I hope that guy finally learned a lesson’.

“That’s it.  He’s off the hook’ I ask.  I am incredulous.

“Yea, she isn’t going to testify against him.  There isn’t much we can do”.

“But you know he did it.  They know he did it and he knows we know he did it.  The next time he does it again, some parent could now sue us now for negligence if we don’t do something.  Are you willing to risk your job on this jerk who abuses our kids?”

That got his attention so I followed up with a recent court case where the judge found the principal guilty of negligence for not disciplining a teacher.

“This could be us.  We know he did it and we can’t pretend it didn’t happen.  It did”.

“What do you think we should do?” Now David is worried.

“Suspend him for five days.  Call his bluff.  Let him challenge us.  Then we can subpoena the mother and the girl to testify if necessary.  But he isn’t going to appeal the suspension.  He has too much to lose.  That way, we took action and held him accountable.”

The principal liked the idea.  He seemed a bit relieved but a bit nervous at the same time.  He called to the teacher’s classroom and asked him to return to the office.  The news was delivered that Mr. Boyd would be suspended without pay for five days for sexual misconduct.  He was informed that he had a right to appeal if he wanted. He was asked if he wanted to make any comments.

“No”, he responded with a resignation of defeat.  A deep sadness permeated the room.

He left immediately and took the suspension without protest. We documented the suspension for any further allegations.  But there were never any more allegations.  I do not serious believe that his behavior stopped.  I think he just became slicker and more discrete in his despicable approach to young girls.


Wednesday, July 29, 2015

A Weekend in London

A Weekend in London
February 2004

Carmella asked me what we were gong to do to celebrate her 60th birthday.
“You mean what are we goingt o do that your husband isn’t interested in doing”, I asked her with a sligh condisending tone.

“Yes, what are we going to do that Tom doesn’t want to do?” she responded without any damage to my tone.

I thought for a moment and then responded, “We are going to London for a weekend.”  I felt pretty smug with this great response.

“London!!” she responded with great, great delight.

And so it was that we went to London for a long weekend in February.  Tom picked me up at 4PM from work and drove the two of us to the airport.  I think he was just as happy to be left behind, as we were to be going to London for a long weekend. We had a 730 PM flight and arrived in Heathrow around 730 in the morning.  We made our way to our hotel and we were allowed to check in early.  We slept until noon and the headed out to Harrods’s for lunch.  From there we found our way to the half price ticket kiosk and picked up tickets to see the evening show of The Lion King.  Prior to the show, we found a hotel to have afternoon High Tea.  After the show, we found a local pub, had a quick pint of ale and then called it a night.

On Saturday, we started with a big English breakfast.  The bacon and grisly sausage were hard to eat but I reminded myself that they were no more vulgar than our bacon and scrapple.  After breakfast, we ran over to the Thames River and took a leisurely boat tour. Then it was off to the half price ticket booth again for tickets to a matinee and an evening show.  We picked two shows that were strictly British.  In between shows, we went for high tea yet again. And after the final show, we found another pub to finish off the night.


On Sunday, we had yet another English breakfast with stewed tomatoes and blood pudding and thick sausages and running eggs. We popped into the Victoria and Albert Museum for the better part of the morning.  Then we hopped on the tube and made our way to the airport.  We were home in Philadelhia by 10:00PM and I was back at work the next mornig, bragging about my adventurous weekend.

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Rickshaw Driver, India

RICKSHAW DRIVER

Varanasi, India
July 2015


My hotel man told me I should not pay any more that 50 rupees each way for a rickshaw ride to the famous, scared Monkey Temple.  That is less than a dollar; less than two dollars for a round trip. So now that I have some guidelines, I am much more comfortable going out on the streets and negotiate a fair fee for a ride.

As I hit the street, I am bombarded with requests from everyone selling anything.  Because it is late in the afternoon, there is desperation in their voices. For some of these people, they have not had any business today so I may be their last and only chance to earn some money today.

“Madame, you want silk?”

“You need taxi?”

“I have good price for you Madame.”

“Will you take a boat ride with me? I give you fair price.”

“You need tea?  I have the finest tea Madame. Come with me. I show you my brother’s shop.”

It’s hard to walk away from hungry, desperate people, particularly when my mere presence projects a profile of abundance.  I am the only white, older woman I see in my surrounds.  And actually, I am the only non-Indian I see. I stick out in this massive crowd.

A young man approaches me with his rickshaw and asks if I would like a ride.

“How much to take me to the Monkey Temple.” I ask him, ready to take on his hard sell.

“200 Rupees, both ways and no charge for waiting for you. You take your time”.

“No, no, no.  Too much”, I tell him with confidence.  “I should only be paying you 50 Rupees each way.”

“50?” There was a tone of insult in this response.

“Yes, my hotel man said I should only pay 50 each way”.

“OK, ok, I have no business today, I will take you for 120 rupees but no less.”

I shake my head and walk away, certain that he will run after me but he doesn’t.  So now I know that 50 rupees is too little. The next driver wants 200 rupees but we settle on 150 for the round trip.

“Your hotel man does not know what he talks about when he says you should only pay 50 rupees.  This is hard work, Madame and it is a long trip. It is 5K to the temple.”

I quickly did the conversion.  Five kilometers is 3 miles so it is a 6-mile round trip ride for $2. This man was going to haul my fat ass through dense traffic for a mere $2.  All of the sudden, I was filled with shame.

The streets are intense.  There are taxis, tut-tuts, rickshaw drivers, scooters, cows, water buffalo, people, carts and dogs.  There are no traffic lights and no rules of the road.  This is just a constant merge from one side of the road to the other.  There are near collisions with every blink of an eye.  I sit high up on my rickshaw and I am sorry I didn’t take a taxi instead.  I am at too much risk to get hurt.

He bikes for 5 minutes then he jumps off the bike and pulls me for a few minutes as he rest as best he can.  I want to jump off, pay him and take a taxi the rest of the way.  But I don’t have any sense at to tell a taxi driver where to drop me off.  I only know how to get back to my hotel by sight, not by street names.  So I have to stay with this man.

He stops at a park that has been turned into a giant, larger than life sized loom and people were wandering around, weaving a magnificent, large piece of fabric.  I think he thought this would grab my attention and I would get off the rickshaw for a few minutes so he could rest.  But, to be truthful, it is just too damn hard to get off the rickshaw.  It is just high enough off the ground that getting off and on is an embarrassing challenge and so I am not going to get off needlessly.  Yes, I would have loved to see this display of art.  But, no, I am not getting off the damn rickshaw.

So we arrive at the temple and he shows me the way around.  I tell him I am not going to be long. I just want to see how many monkeys are there.  I don’t want to talk to any priest and or get any more chakra marks on my far head. I will be in and out.

I go in, I avoid eye contact with anyone who waves to me.  I check things out and I leave, glad to know that I can get back in the rickshaw and head home to get out of the heat and to get away from all of this dangerous traffic.

“You know”, I tell him, “I expected to see monkeys at the temple. I didn’t see any monkeys.  That was a bit of a disappointment.”

“No, Madame, this is not Monkey Temple. One more kilometer,” he tells me.

I am annoyed at him but I understand that this guy has to rest.  This is hard work. So I tell him that I only want to go to the monkey temple, no other place.

“But you can rest as much as you want along the way.  I am not in a hurry.”  I think I am being kind and reassuring.  But I am oblivious to his pride.  This man does not want me to think that he can’t get me there.

We do get there and I check out the monkeys and two juveniles, who are fighting with each other, wrestling right in the midst of the crowd, mesmerize me. People are walking around them and over them as they roll on the sidewalk, flipping each other around.  Then I notice that people are staring at me, staring at the monkeys.  It’s time to go home. So I find my driver and we head out. But first, I stop to buy a bottle of water and offer to buy him a bottle as well.

“No, no Madame, I only drink India water,” he tells me.

I am not sure what that means but we head back into the dangerous traffic. He takes a different route home and he stops to speak to a police office who stands by a blocked entrance to the street.  The road is closed but only to those who do not give the police office 20 rupees.

“I pay him every day”, my driver tells me.  He abruptly stops and tells me this is where I get off. Nothing looks familiar to me and I panic just a little bit.


“Ok, Madame, wait.” And he pulls me just another 50 feet and now things look familiar so I hop off and pay him, more than what we had negotiated but not nearly enough to compensate for this very hard work.