Sunday, November 22, 2015

My Thoughts


 THOUGHTS AND THINGS

The First 30 Years- The College Years

·         People should take the bus through life

·         I hate nuns and bigots.

·         Love and laughter is all I am after.

·         Getting up before the sun is a sign of impatience.

·         I like pesticides.  I like to know that my tomatoes do not have worms.

·         Live loose and travel light.

·         I tend to minimize my accomplishments.  But let’s be real, anything I do, anyone else can do just as well. Right?

·         I haven’t voted in the presidential election since pat Paulsen stopped running.  I think he could have been the best person for the job.

·         I want to be a rock and roll star when I grow up.  I can’t carry a tune.  I can’t remember the lyrics and I have no sense of rhythm.  What I lack in talent, I make up in enthusiasm.

·         The cold air makes me depressed.

·         I don’t like to seat.  It I unladylike.

·         As a teenager, whenever I had to tell my mother anything that may have caused an argument, I always told her in the grocery store.  I knew she wouldn’t cause a scene there.

·         When I was 12, I volunteered to take the blind kids to church on Sunday.  That was an honor for me.

·         I like to sit on the beach and watch the tide go in and out.  Sometimes, I sit on the jetties and I think about jumping in.  It would be so nice to die in such pleasant surroundings.

·         I wonder how old I will feel when I am 80?  Maybe 65?

·         I don’t like to be around animals.  They smell and they don’t get my jokes.

·         I don’t feel as strongly about my convictions s I once did.

·         Work had become too important to me.  It is my sole identity.

·         I feel inadequate around bilingual children.  How is it they can speak two languages and some days I can barely speak English?

·         I always wanted to have sex with a priest.

·         ….and an obese man.

·         Maybe I should have sex with an obese priest.

·         When I was in high school, I thought I knew it all. Now I am not sure I know anything.

·         I hate being sick.  I take it as a personal flaw in my character.

·         I think I have mono.  I just spent 3 days in bed and I slept 15 a day.  Maybe I will go to the doctors.

·         I don’t like to go to the doctor’s. It is admitting defeat.

·         I engage in a lot of avoidance behavior.  The almighty IRS is after me for a dispute over back taxes.  Rather than deal with the issue, I am just never going to accept the registered letter the post office is trying to issue to me.

·         I have a tendency to forget to record withdraws and deposits in my checking account.  Consequently. I bounce a few checks here and there. I always make good on my debts so I don’t know why the bank insists on charging me for each overdraft.  I never see then give me a bonus when I have too much money in my account.

·         You can’t teach old dog new tricks.  Or can you.

·         I am glad I am not a teenager anymore.  I hated those days and the older I get, the more grateful I am that those days are behind me.

·         I don’t want to have any children.

·         I hate wearing stockings.

·         I hate wearing makeup.

·         I don’t like to shave my legs.

·         I went to an Italian movie.  The star was being raped and the audience gave no response until the woman lifted her arm and exposed her armpit hair.  People were repulsed by her hair bit the rape didn’t bother them at all.

·         I cannot have children.  My mother said so.  She said I am too irresponsible.

·         I love English pubs because they close at 11PM.  I always like to close the bar when I go out.  In England, I can close the bar and still get up for work the next day with no problem.

·         I didn’t like my high school.  But I get sentimental whenever I receive my alumni newsletter.

·         Bob Dylan impresses me.  I’d like to be a singer when I grow up bit I can’t carry a tune.  But then, neither can bob Dylan and look how successful he is.

·         I should have been born rich.

·          I am in a weird mood. I am feeling friendless.  When I feel insecure, I feel friendless.

·         I never trust a place where I feel secure.

·         I usually don’t care about ester. But this morning, I got up for a sunrise service on the beach.  The sun was beautiful. We watched the sun come up from the horizon. Without a cue from anyone, we all started clapping.

·         Sunday was a trauma foe me.  We went horseback riding.  I was so scared.  The last time I suffered that much anxiety was the day I got caught forging a signature on a high school geometry test.

·         Sailing is defiantly not fun. It is hard work. We capsized today.  We were heeling too much.  I had to sit on the side of the boat to keep from failing overboard.  O can’t wait until this course is over.  Right now, I don’t even care if I ever get my skipper’s license, I just want out of this damn course.

·         The longer I live alone, the more I lose my capacity to share.

·         I sent out three resumes for a new job.  So far, I have only received two rejections.  I remain optimistic.

·         I had a three day weekend.  The most productive thing I’ve done so far has been to get terribly, terribly drunk.

·         My family is enough to drive a crazy person crazy.

·         The great outdoors and I have a personality clash. We just don’t get along.  I don’t like rural areas.  Rural people are always complaining about how dirty he city is.  They talk about the awful city air smells.  Call me strange but I have never been terribly fond of the smell of cow manure or dead skunk.

·         I was in the hospital once.  I shared a room with a woman who had a gall bladder attack in church.  I told her that church makes me sick too.

·         My brother jobs 5 miles a day.  In my opinion, he is running away for life.

·         You know you are getting old when bald men look good to you.

·         I never drank until I met my mother.

·         I am tired of taking care of me.  I want someone to take care of me.  I don’t want to do my own dishes any more.  I want someone else to do them.

·         I started my garden.  It is going to be a lot of work.  But gardening is such genteel work.  It is almost spiritual as I run my fingers through the soil.

·         I would like to learn to depend on myself as much as possible.

·         I love to walk on the beach at dusk.  The tide goes in and out, at first, I try to dodge the waves.  But then I surrender to the joy of walking along the shoreline and getting my feet wet.

·         I hate it when people are rational and I am being irrational.

·         Last night, there was a huge thunderstorm.  It woke me up and I was actually frightened.  I had visions of some tree falling though my bedroom window.  It was still raining when I woke up this morning.  It was so dark, I thought it was still night.  But wasn’t.  It’s 9AM. Now, a few hours later, the sun is shining and everything is calm again.  There is a bird chirping right outside my window.  I wonder where he goes to hide in a thunderstorm.

·         The whole world has set up standards which cause people to be mediocre

·         The busier I become the less tolerance I am for small talk.

·         My brother is 15 years younger than me.  I work with a woman who has a daughter 16 younger than she is.  Somewhere, there is a lost generation.

·         I know I am getting older.  I don’t like my music as loud as I used to like it.

·         I know I am getting older.  It takes much longer to recuperate form a hangover.

·         I still get nervous around my high school teachers. I wonder if we will ever have an adult relationship, but then again, I am not sure I want to have a relationship with them.

·         I took a course on drug education and now I want to try acid.  But the thoughts of flashbacks intimidate me.

·         In the last five years, my grandmother, two aunts, a cousin his daughter, a friend and a high school classmate have died.  Death is eating away at the nucleus of my spirit.

·         I love to be warm and wet.  My father told he thinks the highlight of my life was when I was in the womb.

·         I am listening to the radio.  There is a song playing, “Sex is Violent.” In case I forget, remind me never to have sex with that man.

·         I feel vulnerable for a while after someone I know dies.

·         I wonder if you get hardened to death.  My grandmother used to visit with us for the summer months.  Every September, after she returned home, she would send us a letter, telling us all the friends who died over the summer. How can she get out of bed some days/

·         I think a mother never recovers from burying a child.

·         I hate to have choices taken away from me.

·         Easter is a boring holiday.

·         I love St. Patrick’s Day.

·         I hate New Year’s Eve. The whole evening is too forced and too dangerous.

·         On the radio some young girl just requested the DJ to play “I Want to Sex You UP and she dedicated it to her 13 year old boyfriend.  I wonder if that girl’s father is listening to the radio.

·         Sometimes I am motivated just because I am told I can’t.

·         It’s cold outside, really cold. I don’t feel like doing anything because it is so cold. I think I have tendencies of a bear.  I want to go to bed now and not get up until it is spring.

·         I have a weird case of the blues.  I am sort of lonely but then I cannot find time to be alone.  I am surrounded by people and I need to be by myself.

·         I looked at people all day.  Everyone has two eyes, a nose, mouth and ears but we all look so different.  It’s amazing to see so many variations on the people. Yet frogs all look the same to me.

·         The sun has been shining through my office window.  By the afternoon the rays hit me right on my back.  It feels good and brings hope of spring.  I opened the blinds and everyone complained.  I work with vampires.  I didn’t listen to their complaints.  I turned off the lights and let the sun light up the room I was beside myself with excitement. But I was alone in my excitement.  It is hard to be a sun worshipper when you work amongst vampires.

·         It is March already.  That makes me feel better. I feel like a bird that has been captured, ready to be released and fly again.

·         I grew up near a blind school. One of the first signs of spring was watching the young children learn to maneuver the streets with a cane.

·         I am searching for something. I wonder what it is.

·         To be or not to be.  I think about this a lot. Sometimes it would be easier not to be.

·         I like living in a city.  I like a place that has lots of opportunity and a variety of bars.

·         Some days there is a fine line between stability and psychosis and other days, there isn’t.  As I write this, I don’t understand what I mean.  Maybe it’s one of those “some days”.

·         I am getting more and more like my mother and that frightens me. My mother is a nut case.  She can really get my goat.  She says whatever is on the tip of her tongue, and she stills offense me tons of unsolicited criticism.

·         I prefer to see men in boxer shorts rather than jockey shorts.  For some reason, boxer shorts just seem more grown up to me.  Maybe that’s because my father wears boxer shorts.

·         Sometimes I hope I die young and quickly. Other times I hope I live forever.

·         I used to take the train to work. I liked that commuting time.  It always gave me the opportunity to mentally prepare for work. On the way home, it was an effortless, mindless time to unwind from the day.

·         My friends only drink Budweiser.  That gets on my nerves.

·         I wonder if anyone can live a stress free life.  Why do I continue to tale jobs which are high pressure?  Sometimes I wish I never gave up that job in the bakery.

·         I would never make it as a homeless person, I am too materialistic.

·         Tonight, at the train station, a homeless person told a public audience that we had better beware.  He was the newly self-appointed leader of a tribe of 36 homeless people and they were going to seize homes if necessary.

·         I never lock my front door.  Maybe I shouldn’t be sharing this bit of information.

·         I hate to dress up on the weekends.  I refuse to wear stockings on a Saturday.  Quite frankly, I prefer to wear no underwear at all on the weekends.

·         Lately, I have become a creative blob.  My thoughts don’t flow freely enough.  I have been like this for the past three years.  I wonder if creativity goes in cycles or am I just not allowing myself enough time to be creative.

·         I went out with my boyfriend the other night; he brought another woman with him.  I think our relationship is beginning to sour.

·         I am becoming a workaholic and that is nothing to be proud of.

·         I don’t like to exercise.  It is too tiring.

·         I wish I could put a hold on time. It goes so fast and I am not giving it 100%.  If I could out a hold on time, I could think about why I am not giving it 100%.

·         Sometimes I think too much and feel too much.  What is a happy medium? I look at people who never question anything.  Then appear happier than me.  So I question myself for questioning too much.

·         I am an aunt.  It is so hard for me to realize that one minute. My sister didn’t have a child and then, she is a mother.  I saw the baby in the nursery and all of the sudden, it dawned on me that he was only seven hours old.  I was overwhelmed with joy.  I watched his absolutely perfect body,  I am so amazed to think about how many babies are born each day and all of them are perfect in one way or another,

·         I am on my way to a concert of the “Messiah.”  I love to sing.  Unfortunately I am going with people who not only can carry a tune but also have trained voices.  I hope this doesn’t intimidate me too much.

·         One summer, I got swept away by a strong rip tide.  I almost drown. It was frightening.  Now I am afraid to sit on the jetties.  I think I will watch the tides from the dunes.

·         I thought I was becoming too self-centered and needed to be responsible for someone, something other than myself.  So I went out and set up an aquarium.  Now I can hardly wait for those damn fish to die and set me free of this hug, all-consuming responsibilities.

·         My mother had seven children.  After my sister had her third child, my mother suggested that she get her tubes tied.  Kathy told her, “Mom, they don’t do that at St. Agnes Hospital.

·         You know you are an adult when you no longer have a desire to be cool. Coolness is a tedious, demanding state of being, respected only by teenagers.

·         I am immediately turned off by people who yell at me.  When someone yells at me, I just want to argue with them at all cost to them and me.

·         While writing my dissertation, the most impressive lesson I learned was not to split my infinitives or was it to not split my infinitives.

·         I used to have a hot tub in my kitchen.

·         I do not like to cook. Once, when I Sublette my apartment, the new lease asked how the stove worked. I had no idea since I never used it the two years I lived there.

·         I don’t like to kiss a man who just smoked a cigarette. I don’t like tasting ash trays.

·         I think about suicide a lot but I do not think I will take my own life. ‘I don’t fear my death. But I do fear a painful death; I have no tolerance for pain and suffering.  If I had a terminal disease, I would consider suicide.

·         I am not religious.  But I do not consider myself to be an atheist.  Nor am I agnostic.  I don’t think about god much.  That concept is far beyond my capabilities to understand.  I think I will understand god in the next life.

·         If all goes as planned, I am going to hell.  I figure most of my friends will be there and rumor has it they do not serve beer in heaven.

·         I look forward to my death.  Hopefully, that is when I would get all the answers about god.

·         I cried when my sister had her first baby. It was an end of an era for my family.

·         Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday.  There is no pressure with gifts.  The family gets together for the day. We eat lots of food and then it is over.

·         I hate watching football.  Why does the country have such a fascination with watching a large group of oversized men run around and chase after a ball that doesn’t even roll?

·         On a cold day, there is nothing like a hot bowl of soup.  Of course, a shot of schnapps is nice too.

·         I did not own a car until I was 30.  Up until then I spent very little time in malls.  I just couldn’t get to them.  Now that they are accessible to me, I have become a materialistic maniac.

·         The Salvation Army stores are a good idea.  People need a place to unload their mass consumption.

·         I do not particularly like men who are interested in sports.  We have little to talk about.

·         I doodle all day long.

·         I also hum all day long.  Apparently I hum We Three Kings a lot. My mpther told me this bit of information.

·         Music is my great escape.  I like all kinds of music except classical and electronic.

·         When I hurt, I withdraw.  I like to be alone when I am hurting.

·         I have a neurotic fear of breaking my leg.  So I do not take too many physical risks.

·         Someone once told me, “Never stand when you can sit, never sit when you can lay down.”

·         I would like to learn to play the sax.  However, I don’t want to waste any time as a beginner.  I am too old to be a beginner.

·         When I was thirty, my six year old nephew could not quite understand where I was in my development. I was unmarried and still going to school.  He said I am sort of like a grown up teenager.

·         My grandfather hated to have my grandmothers friends come over to their apartment to visit. He thought some of her friends were cheap and only came over to drink all his booze.  One day, as the company sat in their living room, he called me in to the kitchen to help him.  He took his bottle of cheap four roses whiskey and poured it in an empty bottle of chivas regal.  Then he paraded in to the living room and poured everyone a drink.  “Nothing but the best for my friends, “he said with so much sincerity.  Then he winked at me as they commented on the quality of the whiskey.  He and I ran back to the kitchen and laughed out loud.  When he died, I put four roses on his grave.

·         I am glad I never took up smoking.  I have enough vices.

·         When I was seven, I watched my grandfather have a heart attack.  He collapsed right on our front porch.  I remember standing on the sidewalk, waiting for the ambulance to come and get him.  Now, 40 years later, every time I hear an ambulance, I think of him.  This moment saved me and helped me withstand the peer pressure to smoke.

·         I was in the third grade when Kennedy was shot.  I clearly remember that day.  The event was upsetting but I am not sure I really understood who Kennedy was.

·         Today, in the grocery store, a mother was yelling at her daughter for having too many pimples.  The girl was mortified.  I wanted to slap that mother.  No wonder some kids don’t talk to their parents.

·         The first time my mother saw mick jagger and the rolling stones, she wanted to know why I liked them.  All of their music sounded the same to her.  Their pants were too tight and gross and their hair was too long.  She just didn’t understand.  Today I watched guns and Rosses on MTV.  I don’t understand why anyone likes them their pants are too tight and gross…

·         I don’t like to travel to any place that isn’t on a bus route.  How are you supposed to get home if your car breaks down?

·         Fat men are appealing to me.

·         I went to Graceland. I now truly believe Elvis is upstairs in the bedroom, laughing at all the money he is making.

·         I hate shaving my legs. Whoever thought of that idea?  Don’t you think we have hair on our legs for some cosmic reason?

·         I never finish anything that I start.  I will be surprised if I finish this project.

·         I have too many clothes and I don’t wear most of them.  I buy clothes and then get them home only to find that they shrunk on the way home.  What fit in the store is way too tight at home.

·         I refuse to throw out a sock just because I lost the mate. That is wasteful. I just wear it with another sock that lost its mate.  Who said socks have to match.  Now, if only I could convince other people of this idea.

·         I am not a morning person.  Every day, when the alarm goes off, I think about quitting my job so that I can stay in bed.

·         I should have been born in royalty.  I would have made a perfect queen.  I like to keep my distance. I love to go to big parties every night.  I enjoy having people wait on me.  And lo love being the center of attention.

·         My friends just had their first child. Our friendship has taken on a new twist.  When we are together now, we focus all of our attention on the baby instead of each other.

·         I have a strange pain in my left leg and I am absolute positive it is bone cancer.  If the pain continues for another six months, I will go to the doctor to have it checked out.

·         Watching sports events is boring to me.

·         I would have loved to have been a waitress at the Algonquin table in the 1920’s.  Maybe some of Dorothy parker’s humor would have rubbed off on me.

·         We punish teenagers when they try to act like adults and we tell them to grow up when they act like kids.

·         I stink, therefore I am.

·         I wish I would stop biting my nails.

·         I hate the suburbs.  I don’t like to drive in an area that is not laid out in grid formation.

·         I like strong ethnic names.

·         I wonder if being an American will ever be considered an ethnic group.  Or will we always be a melting pot.

·         I never liked cooked peas or carrots.

·         I sleep to escape boredom. If my time is not structured, I get bored.

·         I asked my boyfriend if he wanted to get married someday.  He said, “Yeah, someday, when I find the right woman.”

·         I don’t think I would have made a good mother.  I am too self-centered and I hate to get up in the middle of the night.  I remember when I was 10; I threw up in the middle of the night, in the middle of the hallway.  My mother got up with me.  I went back to bed and stayed up and cleaned up the mess.  I don’t think I thanked her.

·         When I was a girl, I hated it when my mother said, “When I was a girl…”

·         I let a lot of good people slip through my life.  I have to make more of an effort to maintain friendships.

·         I don’t understand sports and I am proud of it.

30 to 55- The Working years

·         I am not good in investing my money.  I don’t know how to make good decisions about CDs.  But I do have 500 compact discs.

·         I wonder if I will ever be satisfied with life and myself.  I am always searching for something but I am not sure I know what I am searching for,

·         My younger brother turned 21 this week.  I can’t believe he is 21 already but I also can’t remember life without him.

·         I liked being 25. That is still young enough to be carefree and people accept that but it is old enough to be respected. Now I am a few years older and really slowing down.

·         I just love snow days.  I think of them as true gifts from god.

·         Last week, my six year old nephew wanted to be a morning game show host when he grows up.  This week he wants to be a normal looking rock and roll star.  I am not sure I want to grow up.

·         I have been thinking of taking up golf but I don’t really care if that ball goes in the hole or not. Maybe I should work on my attitude before I invest my money in golf lessons.

·         For my 30th birthday, I drank 30 beers in a 24 hour period.  Then I gave a public speech at a bar and then I threw up.  I am never going to do that again.

·         For my 40th birthday, I went to a professional conference and didn’t tell anyone that it was my birthday.

·         For my 50th birthday, I went to a quiet party with my family and went to bed by 11 PM.

·         Today I had to close my checking account and start all over.  I don’t have a clue as to how to manage my money or that account.  The teller couldn’t figure it out either.  So u closed the account because of irresponsible differenced and I had to promise the teller that I would come back the minute I could not balance this new account,  little does she know that I have never balanced my account and I don’t plan to do that with this new account either.

·         I like thanksgiving the best of all the holidays.  The only expectation of the day is to overeat.

·         When my father and I get together to talk, we discuss economics, the decline of a moral civilization and the crabs at Walt’s seafood house.  Walt’s has the best crabs I have ever eaten.

·         This week, my sister’s niece died of SIDS.  I am heart broken.

·         I had a terrible car accident.  My car was totaled but I was unhurt.  My accident left me depressed.  Maybe now I will realize how precious life really is and how I waste too much time.

·         My possessions possess me.

·         I always love the first snow of the year.  But my enthusiasm lasts only for about ten minutes.

·         If you listen to my mother talk about me, you would think for sure that I was the biggest idiot on the face of the earth.

·         I drink, therefore, I am.

·         I wish I had more energy.  I don’t do enough.  I have lots of good intentions but not enough follow through.

·         I am running out of time and running out of youth.  But I am not running out of regrets.

·         I change jobs so I am always making new friends.  Surprisingly, I don’t miss my friend when I move on.  I wonder if this is a defense mechanism.

·         I have no sense of commitment and it is getting worse.

·         I have the most comfortable in the whole world (that is a fact, I did a survey).  I have a feather bed, an egg crate mattress, a down comforter and two quilts.  I keep the heat down low at night so there is a chill in the air but my body stays nice and warm.  I am so comfortable; it is an effort every day to get out of bed.  Some days, it is so difficult I don’t know if it worth it to have the most comfortable bed in the world.

·         My snooze alarm goes off 8 times before I get up in the morning.

·         I daydream too much.  If I spent half of my day dreaming time on being more productive, my life would be half as exciting as my dreams.  Right now, my life is about ¼ as exciting.

·         Every time I accomplish something, I sit back and beat myself up for not trying harder.

·         I love my microwave.  I love the thought of coming home after a hard day at work and being able to eat a complete meal in six minutes.  That gives me just enough time to run upstairs, go to the bathroom, change my clothe s and get downstairs just as the bell rings in the microwave.

·         Some people can really use their bodies to express themselves.  I am not one of those people.

·         As I grow older, I realize that I am not getting wiser, just wider.

·         I think of myself as a gregarious loner.

·         I went to see my aunt who is dying of cancer.  I hadn’t seen her for a few months so I was shocked to see how quickly she deteriorated.  I cried through the whole visit and she didn’t even notice.

·         The obnoxious sound of the alarm clock wakes me every day.  I know the alarm clock is supposed to wake me but I always think of that sound as being offensive.

·         I have a bad habit of making a joke whenever I am anxious.

·         I don’t think it snowed yesterday.  But it did snow this morning around 2AM.  Should I count that as yesterday since I was still up at the time?  Or should I count that as today.  Now that I am finished with the weather report, I will continue.

·         I took a gun away for a student last week.  It was an automatic pistol.  He wasn’t sure if it was loaded. His friend gave him the gun.  I don’t have any friends who have guns.

·         It was so warm today, it felt like spring.  I was walking around without a coat and the birds were chirping.  Are they in for a surprise when they find out it really isn’t springtime? Won’t they be disappointed?

·         I have to keep things in perspective.

·         Sometimes I feel as if I am still 17 years old.  Then I go to my friends’ house and their kids are 17.

·         I thought of myself as a well-traveled person until I realized I had only traveled to Western Europe, white cultures.

·         My friend once told me I was too tolerant of people.  I told her I would work on that flaw.

·         I don’t know anyone with AIDS.

Over 55- RETIREMENT AND BEYOND

·         I am ok without my parents.  When I was younger, I thought I would be devastated when my parents died.  But their deaths made sense to me and I am ok with these big losses.

·         My nieces are having children and that means only one thing: I cannot deny that I am getting old.

·         When I was born, there were three generations of family member ahead of me.  Now, I am taking up the lead and looking back on two generations.

·         The older I get, the more liberal I get. 

·         Today I took my old photographs and placed a different photo in the mailboxes of my colleagues, everyone spent the day trying to figure out who sent them the photos.  It is driving them crazy.

·         Lately, my name has been in the paper.  I don’t like being in the limelight.

·         I only exercise once every two years.  And those 15 minutes of exercise hurt me for the next three days; I don’t think exercising is a good idea.

·         I am a night person. I love staying up all hours of the night.

·         Every time I go to Penn State, I become a sentimental fool.  I long for those carefree days, and then I remember how poor I was, being poor can be a drag.

·         I am a little worried about me. Lately, my fish have become good company to me.

·         I had to tell a student that his father murdered his mother.  That was really a sad, sad moment in my life.

·         As a principal, I had one priority; no one dies under my watch.  I just dreaded the thought of ever having to make that phone call to a mother.

·         Some days I still feel like a kid.

·          I was thrilled when Obama was elected president. But I was even more excited when he was re-elected.  What a message it sent to all Americans.  He didn’t just break a glass ceiling; he tore down the entire ceiling for everyone.

·         I have a travel addiction and I particular prefer traveling to third world countries.

·         I think I could be a vegetarian but only if someone cooked for me.  There is too much prep work in cooking vegetables.

·         I am already starting to shrink.  I think I was 5’3” at one time but now I am 5’2”.

·         I have developed so many interests over the years: traveling, reading, photography, gardening, birding, kayaking, listening to music, politics, movies, shopping, writing, camping, sitting in my hot tub, massages, etc. But mostly, I love to just sit back and relax.

·         I am so used to aches and pains that I just automatically groan every time I get up from my chair.

·         I love social media.  I wish Facebook had been available during my entire career. 

·         I love photography and I take photos for National Geographic.  It is just too bad that they never publish any of them.

·         I regret that I was too young to understand the civil rights movement. Now that I have read so much about it, I would have loved to have been a part of it.

·         I love microbreweries and craft beers and thank Jimmy Carter every day for loosening up beer brewing restrictions.  This was his greatest act as the president.

·         The issues surrounding homosexuals is our 21 century civil rights issue.  And I marvel at how this issue is unfolding right in front of us.  When I was in high school, no one tolerated homosexuality.  It was not an option for anyone.  I didn’t know anyone who was homosexual.  Now, it is acceptable to be homosexual and the closet is gone.

·         I love global warming.  The milder winters are great.

·         I have taken up kayaking and I love being in the middle of a river and just sitting and listening to the sounds of the birds.

·         I go on Christmas bird counts and meet up with strangers who are expert birders.  I follow them for the day and write down all the birds they spotted for the day.  Then I go home and go through my bird book and see what I didn’t see during the day.

·         My grandparents died of cancer.  My parents died of cancer.  Two of my sisters had cancer.  I think I will get cancer one day.  Once I heard my niece and nephew talk about when they get cancer.  That broke my heart.

·         Retirement is much harder than I had imagined.  It is an effort to fill all of my time. And I miss my community more than I had thought I would.

·         Everything on my body sags, lags or drags.

·         My motto: always make an ass out of yourself today for you may not have the opportunity tomorrow.

·         Love and after is all I am after.

·         I let my pride get in the way.

·         I have to learn to quit, I have to learn that quitting isn’t necessarily failure.

·         I cut my arm. I have decided that I would rather suffer physical pain over mental pain. Physical pain heals a lot faster and the sacs are much easier to cover up.

·         Tonight as I was driving home, I slid on the ice and swirled all over the road.  For a few moments, horrible images flashed through my mind. I didn’t image death but I had visions of losing my hand to my eyes, both are intact, another stroke of good luck.

·         I have too, too much stuff. I am tripping over it.

·         I was sick and the doctor thought I could have Lyme’s disease or Rocky Mountain spotted fever or west Nile disease or a combination of all three. She told me, “I hope it isn’t West Nile disease.  My last patient to have that died in three months.” So I thought to myself, what I should do if I only have three months to live.  I went home and got rid a lot of my stuff in anticipation.  I thought this would save my siblings a lot of work.

·         I hate Christmas.  I have everything about it.  I only like thanksgiving anymore.  And, of course, St. Patrick’s Day.

·         I was good at saving money but I wasn’t good at investing my money.

·         I am starting to get my first wrinkles and I am really bothered by it.

·         I moved to Maryland and I feel as if I abandoned my homeland.  I miss Pennsylvania.

·         I worry about my nieces and nephews all day long.

·         Now that I am retired, I don’t miss work but I do miss having an important purpose.

·         I miss the community that comes with work.  But when I was working with those people, I couldn’t wait to get away from them.

·         I don’t worry about dying but I do worry about a slow, painful death.  I don’t want to suffer.

·         My nephews are agreed to assist me in death when the time comes.  I will begin to evaluate the quality of my life with I am 70 and then again at 75 but there will be no 80th birthday.

·         I’ve had a good life.

·         My work filled me with good purpose and I am proud of all that I accomplished.

·         I have seen more of the world than I ever dreamed I would see in my life time.

·         When I travel, I want experiences that kick me in the ass.

·         I wonder if I will ever get to the point that I don’t want to travel any more.  Will that be the time to call it quits?

·         It is hard work to stay afloat in this ever changing world of technology.

·         I hate to clean my house.  I think it is a waste of time.  But I love to garden.

·         I have become a bird watch.  Now I am always looking for birds.

·         I love to go to matinee movies.

·         I don’t sing out loud the way I used to when I was younger.  I don’t listen to as much music.  Maybe I should get back to music.

·         I stopped writing for 10 years.  But now that I am retired, I am writing again.

·         To date, I have visited 47 states and 75 countries.  That is approximately 46% of the world.

·         If I could see half of the world in my lifetime, that would be great.

·         I finally found the courage and sent one of my stories for publication.

·         I took a memoirs writing course.  I wasn’t really interested in writing my memories.  But that was the only writing class available to me.  Now, I love writing my memoirs and I can’t write the stories fast enough.

·         I have started a book "Memoirs of an ordinary woman”.  The stories are riveting.

·         I have decided to run for US Congress.

·         I hate to be called a girl.  I am an adult.  I am a woman.

·         I compost my garbage and that makes me feel superior to those who do not compost.

·         Having spent 4 months in China, I have a new found respect for the Chinese people.  They are warm, kind and thoughtful.  I wish we could find a way to minimize our differences with their government.

·         I love India and I will go there every chance I get.  It is the most alive place in the world.  The colors, the people, the smells, the food, the warm air, everything is intoxicating to me.

·         Italy is my favorite country in Europe.

·         Thailand is my favorite country in South East Asia.

·         My nephew told me that women tend to grossly underestimate the quantity of bacon that should be prepared for breakfast.